I want to cry. I want to laugh.
I want to go back to India. I want to stay in Singapore.
I hate office- the work pressure and deadlines are killing me. I love my work and project – very happy to work for the first time in 3 years and learning so many new things.
I don’t want to see anybody’s face except my parents. I want to go out with my friends on weekend.
I don’t want to eat anything. I will cook Rajma Chawal tonite and bhindi tomorrow morning.
I should go back to India and marry the guy of my parent’s choice. I should stay in Singapore for another one year and focus on my career.
I am very upset. I am very happy.
These are the thoughts occupying my mind for last 3-4 days. Is it the usual frustration a person gets sometime or am I the victim of terrible mood swings I have at times or the uncertainities and scare I am feeling right now. Not sure about the reason of the confusion but feeling very restless and anxious as I am not able to decide my priorities and wishes.
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